I can’t help myself because I’m lacking confidence, self-esteem and providence. I can’t come up with a solution; I can’t free myself from this misery. I’m furious with everyone who tries to talk to me. I am inconsolable right now.
I was 15 years young, awfully timid and lacking self-esteem. All of a sudden, blogging stepped into my life dragging purpose, value and passion along with it...
So I’m finally done with exams. One word: Blessed!!! (I’m just feeling unbelievably overjoyed!) I was congratulated by loads of people throughout the day, “You finished school!” Yes, I totally did. “You’re done with exams!” Yup, I totally am.
As I gazed at the spectacular landscape, I felt my heart lurch with desire. Quietly but firmly, I said to myself: ‘This is not how I planned to spend my Easter holiday’. I took a breath and paced around the Semien Mountain top. Admittedly, I was in love – but with the overwhelming sunset, the perfectly sculptured view of the horizon, the clean, innocent air… and standing barefooted in the warm, tall green grass was like intruding in the Garden of Eden. She taught me to be strong, fearless and wise, and then she slipped. I couldn't help her, she wouldn't let me. She spent the majority of the life figuring out who she was...acting out different personalities, plastering a smile and keeping it. This really wounded her in the end when life gave her no reason to smile. Suddenly life wasn't all butterflies and rainbows. It was heartbreaks, letdowns and failures - a realm of imperfections. What to do? Do I sound completely insane when I say I love India and I've never actually been there? Who am I kidding? Of course I do!
Weeelll.... to me, the idea of never being there but fantasizing about it day and night seems completely normal. While as other people might say otherwise. This short but very interesting piece I wrote for you will make you view India in a whole another way, a more deeper, more profound way <3 <3 It was midday. It didn’t look much a market – more like thousands of vibrant people congested into one large street. I stepped into the great clutter of dust that struck me from miles away. The sun shone fiercely and a slight breeze blew across my face. I held my aqua-blue handbag in my right hand and a number of dented rupees in my left. Very much like China, Chennai had numerous roads overflowing with people. I’m the luckiest person in the world – I have the most two amazing friends: Holly and Adrianna. The three of us might have had our ups and downs but at the end of the day, they’re still my best friends and I love them dearly. They stuck with me through thick and thin and for this, I thank them wholeheartedly. Holly and Adrianna are like my sisters – we’ve been through so much together. It's always been us against the world. |
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